fucked___up's Journal [entries|friends|calendar] fucked___up .o1 n a v i g a t e + info + friends + add me + modify your lj + update your lj + FAQ .o2 l i n k s + my love + my deviantART + myspace .o3 c o n t a c t s msn: brownie3@hotmail.com aim: notyourxbarbie yahoo: notyourxbarbie .o4 r a n d o m n e s s hmm.. for starters, i'm cool. yah, i'm cool as shit. you should add me and leave me tons of comments. but for the basics... my names stephanie (i prefer steph) and i'm 15. i dont look or act my age, never have, and i've found that telling people my real age before they get to know me makes them judge me. i usually get along with older people, mostly males, just because i'm not a very girly person and i tend to be bitchy towards prissy chicks. i don't have many people i call friends, and i like it that way. i'd say most of my "friends" come from online things like lj, myspace, all that good shit. i live in the small, shitty town of sierra vista, arizona and spend my time masturbating or online. cool, eh? as far as looks, i'm not a real looker.. and that's ok. i do have a few pics of myself posted in my user info though, if you'd really like to know what i look like. i have the most amazing bf named simon who i've been with for just about 17 months. he's my everything, i talk about him 24/7, his pictures are everywhere.. pretty much everything i do revolves around him. i love him so much :) i guess that's my life. i bet it made you cream yourself with joy, right? [ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ] [ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

Then & Now [Oct 13th, 2008 @ 1:57 PM] [ mood | curious ] Ohhhh wow.. it has been FOREVER since I have posted anything on here. For those of you who still kept me on your friends list, I hope you remember me and hopefully we can talk again. I met a lot of really great people on here, some of which I still talk to today, but some others who I lost touch with when I stopped using livejournal as much. I guess I'll start off exactly where I finished. In my last entry, which seems like decades ago, I posted that I finally convinced my mom to leave my dad and that we were living with one of her friends. It was a really nice change from the hell I had been living in for years.. but it didn't last long. My mom was out partying and drinking every night, and usually had a different guy driving her home. I wasn't extremely happy, but I was happy to be away from my dad and no longer be abused. But, it didn't last long, and before I knew it my mom was back with my dad and I was told I had to move back too. During all this craziness Simon and I slowly drifted apart and our relationship was pretty much nonexistant. In June of 2005 I met a guy named Shawn who I instantly was attracted to, and it didn't help that I was lonely and things were going so bad with Simon. Eventually I made the choice to break up with Simon and I started seeing Shawn. It instantly was a horrible relationship but I thought I loved him and I stuck through it. I spent 3 years of my life wasting my time with him.. being treated like shit, controlled, and having no friends due to the fact I couldn't go anywhere or do anything without him. When I finally got the courage to break up with him it only got worse. He started following me and breaking into my apartment, and just harrassing me every chance he got. Eventually he wound up putting bleach in my soda at the movies and almost killed me.. it was a huge deal and all over the news. And now in January I have to go to court against him and hopefully put him away for a long time for what he did to me. I can only hope. This was me then.. and this is me now =) Since breaking up with Shawn I made the decision to change my life completely. I'm now 18 (going to be 19 in 3 days!) and I moved to Denver, Colorado in May 2008. I moved here because the last person I felt I could trust lived here and I was more than ready to start a new life, with new people and most of all a new environment. Although once I moved here I no longer was friends with that person.. I can say it was the best decision I have ever made in my life. I met an amazing guy named Chris who respects me and loves me for everything I am. I moved in with him 2 weeks after I met him, which sounds kind of crazy, but it's been an amazing experience and everyday it just gets better =) It's pretty crazy how different life is for me now compared to what it always has been. But I wouldn't change it for the world! I've never been happier and I hope it stays this way forever. These are my boys =) Thanks to anyone and everyone who took the time to read this. I really hope I can get back in contact with you guys! comment

[Dec 4th, 2004 @ 5:14 PM] [ mood | guilty ] [ music | everybody loves raymond ] i have yet another question for you fellow livejournalers... i need to send a package..hmm.. across the country and im not really sure how to go about it. ive only sent envelopes and shit so im not sure what all you have to do. i got the whole put it in a box, tape it up, all that good shit... but i know it costs something, and i dont know where or whom to give the money to, i dont know if i have to drop it off at the post office or if i can just give it to the mailman... i just dont know! so can someone be a doll and explain it to me? pweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeze. 600 + comment

go away. [Aug 22nd, 2004 @ 12:18 PM] friends only. + dont steal anything on my page. including the coding. + wait for shit to load. + dUn tYpE lYkE uR ReTaRdEd. + comment. add me. be added. 2900 + comment

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